So I am free now. A furlough from the zealous pursuit of that parfait score, unshackled from my own restrictions,unbound by my own fears. All of a sudden now, I feel liberated. At least that's what my mind says.
But then,it's not long before I begin to stoke myself with concerns that least concern me, as has always been the habit.Justified,if it is for your loved ones.Not so justified if it is about you.And that's precisely what has been happening for a month or so and I couldn't wait to snap out of that self-imposed constraint.
It's only been a day since I began letting the sunshine in and god do i feel alive again. The laughter has been unstoppable and just like that, it all seems normal. Even perfect, like I never went through an ordeal at all. I don't know if this rightness of this feeling has anything to do with the apparent absence of worry or it really is my mind blurring reality. But it surely does have a lot, mind you, a LOT to do with the kind of people around you.And i can't say enough about how blessed I am to have such wonderful and supportive souls around me. Miles across and yet at your disposal. Boggled with their own worries and work and yet welcome to my trials and tribulations. Close and unrelenting in helping me putting my best foot forward.
So,thank you guys.Thank you for completing me.Thank you for being my family. Thank you for seeing me through the sarcasm that I am obviously coated in. Thank for you for being there while i angrily refuted all your theories(which were right by the way).Thank you for believing I still have some goodness left in me.
Just thank you.
